Our hearts thumping we leapt over the shoes piled neatly at the mosque's entrance and plunged into the deep Kabul winter snow in our bare feet, running away as fast as we could. We weren’t followed. Shivering and scared, Tamim with the red handprint on his cheek wanted to go home, but I wanted my boots and revenge. We snuck back to the mosque, grabbed our boots and, as a last act of defiance, filled all the remaining shoes at the mosque's door with snow.
We weren’t invited back.
Living in San Francisco, far from the Afghan community in the Bay Area, I only see the inside of a mosque when there is a funeral. You can imagine everyone’s surprise when I announced my decision to make a pilgrimage to Mecca. Friends and family stared at me blankly, asked if I was “OK” and wondered loudly if I’m having a mid-life crisis.
For those of you who are not familiar with Islam, Umrah, also known as minor pilgrimage, is a visit to Mecca performed by Muslims at any time of the year. In contrast, the Hajj, draws millions of people to Mecca during one 5 day period in the last month of the Islamic year. Hajj fulfills one of the five pillars of Islam that all able-bodied Muslims must complete before their death. I’m doing Umrah.
It was about two years ago when I started fantasizing about a trip to Mecca and Medina—to experience the power of Islam's holiest sights. I imagined it would be moving, sharing this spiritual adventure with thousands of others, all donned in white clothes from head to toe as we follow the footsteps of Prophet Muhammad, Peace Be Upon Him (PBUH) around the Kabba (home of God).
The opportunity to take this trip came sooner that I expected. A few weeks ago I found out my favorite aunt was making the pilgrimage at the end of March with a group of Afghan-Americans elders. I decided to tag along, after all, it’s not everyday I will find someone who wants to go on a pilgrimage.
The euphoria of my decision turned into a burden when elder relatives called to congratulate me for making the holy pilgrimage. Surprised by this reception, I realized I was stepping into a bigger obligation than I had anticipated.